Awareness... Consciousness... I do not remember. My name is Amariel, I
think. Anna... L.... Amariel, yes that is what I am called. For my
sanity, and also for posterity I am keeping this journal. I have no
memories, I have too many memories. Conjoined, betwixt, bereft of knowledge
of myself, I do not know where I begin nor do I know where I will end. You
see, I have vivid memories of mundane happenings, important events,
terrifying battles, pain and agony, joy and love, too many memories for them
all to be my own, whoever I have been, whoever I am now.
I have no memories of being young, of my youth, though I do recall being
young if not being me. I was told this is due to the illness I was not
expected to survive. High fever burned away my memories I was told. My
parents? Yes I was told I had parents, and that they prayed for a miracle
to deliver me from illness and inevitable death. As I have been told a
queer light suddenly appeared and suffused me with its gentle glow. The
priest told me he had never seen anything like it, and as suddenly as it had
appeared it was absorbed into my body. His supposition is that the gods did
answer their heartfelt prayers and delivered me from dying, and further he
believed my fragmented memories and visions were a result of this "light."
It took me a long time to recover as I have always been frail, and continue
to be so. Troubled by the dreams and mostly nightmares. Knowing they were
mine but not truly knowing if they were my own. I had no familial
connections as I had no memories of my family, as heartbreaking as it was
for my parents and their parents and their parents' parents. Apparently I
come from a long-lived line. The church took me in and looked after me for
a time as I developed what little strength I have, though I have memories of
being much stronger. I was regarded as fey and strange, yet they held me
with a certain reverence. I was their proof that "miracles" did happen and
were granted to the faithful and as further proof I had developed an
affinity for healing others with a touch. A great gift I was told, a thrice
blessed boon granted to me, a gift of the ability to create miracles.
Journal Entry #1
The healers guild has been instrumental in my ability to harness my
gifts, as well as aiding in overcoming my frailness and surviving. I have
gained ranks and status in a steady manner, all the while training my mind,
body, heart and soul. I have devoted myself to the service of others of
making miracles happen both small and large. In accordance with this, I
have pledged myself to the worship of Vanisse. I find my service very
rewarding, though I know not why. Something wiser in my memories gives me
an instinctual feel that something is still lacking. I will find this lack.
As part of my training I took several months purging the hordes of undead
that infest the far corners of this world. So much purging, so much so that
my holy symbol has become smudged and somewhat tarnished. I am still quite
frail, but I have hardened myself and learned a bit of cunning in my
tribulations. I have had to defend my life quite furtively several times
from people I have never met before. It troubles me that there is so much
hate in this world. An almost insurmountable thing.
At first some avian attacked me in my sleep while I was training. It hurt
quite a bit as I wasn't prepared, but I think his rudeness hurt the worst.
When I inquired as to his name and as to why he was attacking me he merely
responded "I am evil." A terse, trite response to be sure. He disappeared
as swiftly as he appeared. Later on as I was resting from my travels in the
guildhall I found it suddenly assaulted by a giant of a man. He attacked
poor Surga and I came to Surga's defense. His threat was more urgent,
though I was able to tend Surga's wounds and repel the attack. Again, no
words just the unspoken threat of violence. Such rudeness, such trite evil.
When I asked him his name he merely seemed surprised I knocked him off his
mount and quickly disappeared. After my rest I met a giant of a creature,
who called himself an ogre. As I attempted to learn more about him I was
again attacked by some creepy looking creature. He attempted to burn and
melt me with elemental magics, though again no words, just unspoken
violence. As I spoke to the ogre I learned that this man served Vhrael as
his fist, and liked to eat humans. Before I could express my desire for him
to stop and my intent to oppose him in this I was attacked again. I
repelled.... Whoever it was. As I asked him his name he bemoaned his bad
luck. He stated his intentions to impress that ogre by fighting me, though
I think he failed miserably in this. I applauded his recognition of the
impact luck has on ones life and that it inspires hope and can create
miracles. He stated that I was only alive due to my good fortune. I
suppose I can agree with this. He too disappeared very swiftly with no
mention of his name. Perhaps I am expecting too much to have polite
discourse with those full of such hate. I will endeavor to find some
way of determining who they are. Nametags, perhaps?
Journal Entry #2
It has been difficult to find the time to write of late, and I fear I may
have forgotten much of what I wished to write. Life of late seems to
comprise of long bouts of boredom interspersed with brief adventurers and
insane bouts of terror. I have advanced near to the highest rank within the
Healer's guild, but I find myself lacking as unabated assaults continue from
ever more dangerous and continually anonymous foes.
I was blessed and honored many times over with the favor of my Goddess, as
she deigned to speak to one as unimportant as I. She set upon me two tasks
which I enthusiastically took on. The first being nearly within reach, and
the second at the moment seeming impossibly difficult. However, I will
continue my prayers and work to make such a miracle reality. I truly
believe in the infinite possibilities of the mortal spirit. I will train
harder and realize my own potential.
I began adventuring with fast friends, gaining strength and ranks....
However a deranged duergar sought to end my life as we hunted. An almost
suicidal venture for him, however he believed in his advantage over me in
strength so much to try it. I believe his name was dog.... Dogmeat...
Dogrun.... Dogran! My friends told me this was his name. I did ask him
for it as he fled, he said it was "protection will save your life." It
seems his mother was an interesting woman to name him such.
I was asked on an adventure by my friends Ilromie and Durbleburby. I was
scared out of my wits by the difficulty of these battles but we did valorous
work as we made our way up a secluded mountain beyond the frozen wastes.
That little gnome has the heart of a lion and fought valiantly against
hordes of foes. Sadly I failed in my duty and he met his end on that
mountain. Who knew bears lived in large clans of twenty or so on
mountaintops?. Rest in Peace Durby.
He returned as swiftly as he passed and I was somewhat relieved if not
mollified. A miracle of miracles, that he was returned to us. Several
malefactors were present at this point and hunted us relentlessly.
Dogmeat?.... Dogran! Followed us deep into the jungle and assaulted us.
Durbie fought him as I returned to my temple and alas... Fell to him. Rest
in Peace Durbie. I failed him twice in life... It tears at me that I seem
powerless and ineffective in aiding those in need. I had no time to shed
tears however. A drow shaman was waiting for me in my temple as I returned
and brought me near to death. He enjoyed his advantage to swiftly remove my
sight, however I was able to evade him with the assistance of the Goddess...
I was taken into the heavens and deposited near to safety. Near to, but not
quite safe... He swiftly found me and found some dark way to sever my
conduit with the Goddess which I found terrifying. He chased me across the
lands for nearly a day, however miracle of miracles I was able to survive.
I later learned that these men were members of the Army of the Legion. I do
not fear these men, as I know that their hatred cannot endure. However, I
do fear my lack of ability to oppose them in any effective way.
Description:
Shining blue eyes regard the world with compassion and empathy from within
a pale, fair face. A crown of shimmering blonde hair that almost entirely hides
ears of elvish heritage is tamed into three elaborately tied braids, two short
braids that frame her face on either side and a third waist-thick braid that
falls for nearly the entire legnth of her tall, slender body. Her gait and
purposeful strides speak of nobility, and her manner of kindness. She is garbed
in white robes which are stained from what appears to be extensive travels. Her
hands are calloused but oddly enough, pristinely cleaned and maintained.
Damn those necromancers. Why does it not show all his logs? I've noticed this problem before with other GY's.
tayyah
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They have to be manually tagged by someone. If you look directly underneath the log there is little.boxes and thumbs up and down with character names. It's pretty small and under the bottom left corner. If no one tags the character it wont show up on GY
tayyah
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The button is "mentions" its yellow and small under the bottom left corner of the log box
Yeah I knew that was there, but didn't know that was the be all end all way to connect the log to the characters gy. Don't really like that. Think it's best for it to automatically put all your logs to your character?
Davairus
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It is not that difficult, e.g. https://abandonedrealms.com/logs/?search=Illyiza and tag whatever you want to associate to your character, Automation would pick up a load of bullshit like who lists.
I liked the backstory I learned about this character and was looking forward to seeing more of it unfold. However, from the logs and our conversations you didn't sound to be having much fun with the combo. I hope you have fun with your next.
This was my first serious foray back in a long time. Planned out a solid idea for roleplay and was going to use this character to test the waters, Really had fun at first, and then it just stopped being fun. I think most of this was due to everyone I interacted with deleting and hitting the pk wall hard against shaman and necros. With the obvious current exception, elves just feel SO gimpy. HP is supposed to level out, but the lion share of my gains were 6 or 7 hp so at 50 even with all the free trains I was pushing 600hp. I have other irons in the fire, so im still here.
Kornhole
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I am certainly no expert, especially when it comes to healers, but I would think that your immense mana pool was supposed to mitigate the small health reserves......600 health can be fully refilled MANY MANY times with the amount of mana you should have had. Glad to hear you have more about, don't mean to take away from your comments, just explaining why I think the lack of HP should not have been too terribly detrimental, or perhaps why I think that it might be intended to be this way. Plenty of HP gear available to lightwalkers as well. GL on the next!
Ashlyn
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Thank you. Your point is right on, I could effectively not run out of mana in most fights. Autosneak also is handy to let you get away with it. The fights I lost tended to be 3 round affairs, or situations where I couldn't cast (I.E.Blasphemy). I get elves are supposed to get low hp, but seeing possible rolls of 11/12 and getting mostly rolls of 6/7 kinda deflated me. I'll try a different option next time.
Erlwith
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Yeah the whole idea is that healers can massive heal so they don't need a lot of HP. Plus a silent elf with heal and 800 hp would be so op lol. my human healer only topped 700 hp, that is with a lot of 1 prac in skills and all trains in hp. Then again without weapon ward they need all the hp they can get now.
Davairus
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I wrote this months ago but the amount of currency each cabal has is going to take a long time to drain - on top of that there were the herbs that never decay. It needs time to pass through the system. Healers, paladins, shamans are all impacted because of their attrition game. I think you're going to see people with little understanding of this come around in a few months to saying those are the best classes at level 50 and pointing at things that have nothing to do with it. It will be because the consumables safety blanket has finally completely evaporated. Until then, these classes are challenging. I think we have still 3-4 months to go
Okay awesome character. Loved playing with you even as an ally. Favorite pk on my necro was at the guild guardian. You turned undead and I just ate the guardian and you before you could stop turning. Great show can't wait to see the next.
tayyah 
0 , 0 , 0 . They have to be manually tagged by someone. If you look directly underneath the log there is little.boxes and thumbs up and down with character names. It's pretty small and under the bottom left corner. If no one tags the character it wont show up on GY tayyah 
0 , 0 , 0 . The button is "mentions" its yellow and small under the bottom left corner of the log box Illyiza 0 , 0 , 0 . Yeah I knew that was there, but didn't know that was the be all end all way to connect the log to the characters gy. Don't really like that. Think it's best for it to automatically put all your logs to your character? Davairus 0 , 0 , 0 . It is not that difficult, e.g. https://abandonedrealms.com/logs/?search=Illyiza and tag whatever you want to associate to your character, Automation would pick up a load of bullshit like who lists.
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Kornhole 
1 , 0 , 0 . I am certainly no expert, especially when it comes to healers, but I would think that your immense mana pool was supposed to mitigate the small health reserves......600 health can be fully refilled MANY MANY times with the amount of mana you should have had. Glad to hear you have more about, don't mean to take away from your comments, just explaining why I think the lack of HP should not have been too terribly detrimental, or perhaps why I think that it might be intended to be this way. Plenty of HP gear available to lightwalkers as well. GL on the next! Ashlyn 
0 , 0 , 0 . Thank you. Your point is right on, I could effectively not run out of mana in most fights. Autosneak also is handy to let you get away with it. The fights I lost tended to be 3 round affairs, or situations where I couldn't cast (I.E.Blasphemy). I get elves are supposed to get low hp, but seeing possible rolls of 11/12 and getting mostly rolls of 6/7 kinda deflated me. I'll try a different option next time. Erlwith 
0 , 0 , 0 . Yeah the whole idea is that healers can massive heal so they don't need a lot of HP. Plus a silent elf with heal and 800 hp would be so op lol. my human healer only topped 700 hp, that is with a lot of 1 prac in skills and all trains in hp. Then again without weapon ward they need all the hp they can get now. Davairus 0 , 0 , 0 . I wrote this months ago but the amount of currency each cabal has is going to take a long time to drain - on top of that there were the herbs that never decay. It needs time to pass through the system. Healers, paladins, shamans are all impacted because of their attrition game. I think you're going to see people with little understanding of this come around in a few months to saying those are the best classes at level 50 and pointing at things that have nothing to do with it. It will be because the consumables safety blanket has finally completely evaporated. Until then, these classes are challenging. I think we have still 3-4 months to go
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